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Saturday, September 22

again~




What can i said, your silence tauting....
u'll never understand the wound that u cause inside my heart..
i juz can't stop forgiving, whenever u smile, those memories flew back..
back and install in their very right position..

What can i said, when your silence kill those precious memories..
When will u understand when i ever said, i'll be here, and i really mean it..
When will u understand, i actually trusting and hold a hope that u will keep your promise..
When will you understand, no matter how wrong u r, i'll always be here..

When will i understand, i can't protect you forever..
When will i understand, the best gift ever, is to let you grow..
When will i understand, every wounds that heal, left scars..
When will i understand, you don really need me all the time...
When will i understand, i can never replace the you in you...

let's grow up..i'll never ever try to be annoying anymore..
i can't guess when will you need me..
sometimes you need caring, but certainly you will never need my cares..
i guess sometimes, you juz being selfish, keep me by ur side and tortured me with silence ..
Do you know i might drown in silence?i guess u'll never know..becoz you only care for urselves..

you said..once again, you can't protect yourselves with words...
i'm hurting, as u still din understand...i'll believe watever u said, juz said sth, if you did sth wrong, i don mind remind you..
u choose to protect yourselves with silence(and you called it cnt protect)..
you choose to be silence, becoz u really did sth wrong, and you hope silence actually make the ppl around you guilty..
but you are wrong again, no1 actually did feel guilty, the only one who feels guilty is me...
everytime when you mess up sth, u'll juz dissapear...n i'm there clearing up...
i always think, you din do it on purpose, becoz you alwez remind silence when i ask you..
but do you know how it hurts when i find up the truth??
if never the behavior that hurts me...
you should knw that, even if you do killed someone, i'll still face it with you...
but the truth is, you do it on purpose...especially come to my thing...
everytime you ffk me...altot i'll always said im used with it, but im actually still hoping...
every hopes come with hurts...

how dare you....and you are so cruel you know?
you placed me in a very dilemma condition~~
you push me to hell, and make me accept it's my fault..

you choose to protect yourselves with silence...
and make me keep trusting your silence~!


Thursday, September 13

《自卑》

愛上了一個人,走在無人的街邊,聽著浪漫的歌曲,一個人微笑著。。
這是我。。。

有人說,世界上最孤單的是,周圍人好多。。吵雜聲好刺耳,你卻一個人安靜著,仿佛世界并沒有與你有瓜葛,好像周圍的意境都只是在反映著耳機里的歌曲。。
這是我。。

如果一個人在靠近你,你只想跟他分享耳機里的歌曲,而他卻毫不在意,你會寂寞~
這是我~

我仿佛看到遍體鱗傷,卻又帶著微笑的人~
我仿佛看見心靈空虛,卻又傲氣林人的人~
我仿佛看到憂傷自虐,卻又引以為傲的人~
我仿佛看見了,卻又告訴自己,你沒有看見~看到的都是假的~

是我讓別人覺得傷害我是一件小事,是我讓大家覺得我并不值得~
我就知道,又是我的錯~

Tuesday, September 11

我不愿意

我只是不愿意看到你妳你你妳你妳你妳。。一個人~

所以后來,我是一個人,
因為你妳你妳你妳你。。已經不需要我了~

我是斷翼的天使~
墜在地獄里,等待一個沒有的可能~

我不愿意让你一个人去承当,但你还是承当了~
我不愿意看见你难过,但你还是难过了~
我不愿意自己不能为你挡风,但我还是为别人挡风了~
我不愿意看着你孤单的背影,但我看了好几回~
我不愿意你在人事中受折磨~但我却只能给安慰~

我能做的很少,或许只是这么少。。
我不该认为自己对你而言,会有多重要。。
我不该在想不通的时候只是睡觉。。
现在我头疼。。因为睡太多~

我想,我是爱你的。。像我妹妹一样,像我妈妈一样。。

但是,我的付出是因为我缺乏安全感,不是因为你真的需要,这点,我每天都在提醒自己~