A dream to remember, a lesson to learn.

Had a really weird and realistic dream last night. I woke up and found myself at Sibu le. My mom say i sleep for a really long time(coma). i felt really desperate when i know that i'm 30 years old le. and i shout to every1 and ask them what was happening, no one actually wanna tell me....maybe they scared that i cannot accept it......well that's along story~~don feel like wanna tell it 'deeply. o ya..i actually plan to continue my foundation study at the age of 30 years old...cheers~~^^....
 Just that i learn a really important lesson. Sometimes time flew like rocket. Maybe someday i found myself 30 years old already but still a useless somebody and feel like i had waste my precious 30 years.
treasure what i have now.

"he is no fool,who use what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose."
-----------------------------------------------------------------------Jim Elliot.

做小孩，不行吗？

在实验室～～^^

19岁咯～其实真的不算小了，但是还是很像小孩，很爱玩。我只是希望自己永远都只是一个小孩，不需要扛起太多的责任。照片中的我竟然在实验室玩了起来。很不自觉的，有时候耍赖了，很不自觉的觉得自己越来越融不进身边人的世界，很不自觉的希望别人把我当小孩一样，很不自觉的逃避一些成人世界必须面对的问题，很不自觉的喜欢顶嘴，然后别人故意输给我的感觉，像是一种的满足感。怪了，怪了。。我什么时候才会长大？怪了，怪了，我可以就当小孩吗？

姐妹～～想你了~~

姐妹，想你了～特别想念你弹琴的样子，我在一旁用着噪音破坏音律，你依然陶醉，似乎活在自己的世界里，似乎我的噪音已经是你脑海当中音乐的一部分。
我记得，不管如何你会专心听我讲话，听我发牢骚，听着从我嘴巴出来的噪音，听着我吹牛，听着我对别人发出严厉的指责。你没有怨言，总是温柔的告诉我，我哪里错了，哪里该改了。我不敢说你是最了解我的～但是你一定是最把我当小孩的那个，可以接受我会犯错，可以接受我无故的耍赖，可以接受我的无厘头，可以接受我需要赞美，语言的肯定，可以接受我的软弱，可以接受我非常不坚强的一面，可以接受我的孤僻。真的没有人了，当大家都在期待我的表现，也只有你在意我是不是累了～。我不知道自己为什么成长，但是你是不可缺少的一环。

姐妹！！知道你名花有主，特别恭喜你啦～哈哈～～希望一切顺利～～六月见~

自杀？？

p/s: haha~~picture of a really smart little rabbit committing suicide.

alrite..back 2 mandarin...as usual.....English@@..impossible 4 me..hehe..
juz another **committed suicide lately..erm....still becoz of the "stupid love"(sorry i din mean all)haha~~
看到他为情自杀～～我不禁有感而发，他或许真的很爱她，想保护她，但是。。他却懦弱得连自己都保护不了。。对！他高举着爱情的伟大，很多人也为着他的壮举鼓掌，他标版着女友之上的牌号，却同时抹杀了亲情与温情。为什么放下爱他的家人，需要他的人？他究竟懂不懂什么是爱？为什么二十二年的亲情对他而言竟然比不过几个月的？
我为了不反对一些人愚蠢的想法。。所以我也来支持自杀吧。。（不会吧！！）
重点是。。我的方法不同。。真的要自杀。。请参考下列做法。。这样光荣些。。
1.杀掉旧我，一个为别人而活的人
@一个照顾饮食，只是为了要捐血要在死后捐献器官的人。
@一个代替兄弟姐妹照顾父母的人。
@一个到老人院，孤儿院献爱的人（他们或许更加会对你的爱做出回应）
有什么比这种死法更加唯美，为什么要高举着爱情至上的牌号伤透父母朋友的心呢？
there is nth better than this..maybe someday..u will find yourselves in love with another guy or girl...or maybe u will find other meaning of love thru all those servicing...selfish makes one's feels bad~~lead a meaningful life~kill ur old self ....nt ur body...lastly i'll share some of biblical words..
愛的真諦


愛是恆久忍耐又有恩慈　愛是不嫉妒
愛是不自誇不張狂　不做害羞的事
不求自己的益處　不輕易發怒
不計算人家的惡　不喜歡不義只喜歡真理
凡事包容　凡事相信　凡事盼望
凡事忍耐　凡事要忍耐　愛是永不止息

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Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it does not keep record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices when truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Love will last forever.
 - The Holy Bible; 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a, NLT Version

hello friend...

hello..long lost friend---blog~~haha~~kinda tired and lack of motivation now.Is like wanna keep myself away from crowd, away from people i know, away from this place. After Chinese new year celebration, kind of lost my way, maybe that's because i'm away from God, the one who leads me thru the correct pathway, the One who motivates me, the One who loves me, the Only One who understands me most. Too many things happen, but what i believe is U are always by my side, the only thing is, am i willing to grab U---my lovely heavenly God Father. I mess everything up....haha~~kind of..useless sometimes.....i accepted.